Happy New Year 2019 🎊

It’s been awhile since I have been in the blogs.

Today is my father’s birthday. He passed away years ago but for some reason I felt the need to celebrate who he was. He was a twin. He mostly worked and spent little time with his children. I sometimes wish I could have spent more time with him. It got me thinking about the new year ahead and changes I want to make going into this new year.

I joined a gym. I’m sure thousands of others have as well. I’m having an out patient procedure done in March. I have finally decided on a different career path and I am planning on starting this summer.

I’m hoping to relax this year. I want to spend more time with my family and enjoying life. I feel as if 2018 was so consumed with work and bills that I didn’t really take the time to just enjoy life. None of us are promised each day. I am one year older . Another year has been checked off of my life and I’m not quite settled yet. I want to travel more. I want to go to more basketball games and concerts. I want to live more.

I want to be happy.

I want to publish another book. I’m working on it.

Here is to 2019 hoping it’s a great year ! Happy New Year !!!🎊🎆🎈

A little about me …..My favorite music !!

It has been awhile since I have blogged. Uninspired ? Apprehensive?

However , I came across one of the best R&B groups that I have ever heard tonight. As I was browsing on YouTube I came across H-Town. H-Town is a 90s R&B group from Houston , Texas. H -Towns most well known song ( and my personal favorite ) is Knockin Da Boots

Those soulful voices just make me melt and put me in dreamland. What some people may not know is the lead singer in the group Dino was killed in a car accident in 2003. The remaining two members Shazam and GI still tour across the US .

I love the 90s R&B. Sometimes I wonder if I was in a group in one of my past lives because it just doesn’t get better then that 90s R&B.

I am also a huge fan of Shai. One of my favorite songs of all time :

How about Tevin Campbell ? Anyone remember him ? This is one of my favorite tracks by Tevin …

Last but not least …. one of my favorite tracks today is by R&B group PM Dawn . I could listen to I’d Die without you 100 times a day and never get tired of it . Such a beautiful song . Enjoy !!

LeBron James debut as a Laker

I was super excited to see LeBron play his first pre season game with the Lakers last night. I was only able to catch a few minutes of the game because the people I was with was already watching the Pittsburgh Steelers game.

Let’s just say it was more exciting to watch LeBron. He only played about 15 minutes but just seeing him in his Lakers uniform and in action gave me the same chills I had watching him for 15 seasons ago.  It is pretty weird to see him in purple instead of blue , but at least I get another year to watch this beast on the court.

I have to get use to watching a whole new team again. The only other players on the Lakers team that I am familiar with is Stephenson and Ball. The only reason I am familiar with Lonzo Ball is because his dad has a mouth that is bigger than LeBrons career. I can’t say I am to excited to see Lonzo’s dad screaming at the sidelines and telling everyone how his son is already better than LeBron and Jordan combined. Yeah , I will just ignore that last sentence as well 🤐.

NBA regular season starts in about 15 days. I have tickets to see LeBron on his return to Cleveland November 21. I am so exited to see if LeBron can lead the Lakers to the finals just as he did the CAVS and the Heat. It’s going to be an interesting year 🤗

EMINEM drops new album and scores his 9th consecutive number one album on billboard….Kamikaze interview part 1

Finally something that brings my interest back ! Eminem just dropped his 9th studio album quietly ( sort of ) . He did this without promotion or warning but like a Hurricane it debuted at number one on the billboard charts. The album has mixed reviews. Some say it’s a lyrical mess and question weather he still has what it takes after being in the game for 20 years. Others say Shady is back !

From what I heard , shady is definitely back. Eminem goes full throttle on his album bashing his critics , mumble rap , Drake , and Machine Gun Kelly . He also makes fun of himself on a few tracks.  I have not heard the entire album yet but from what I heard I definitely feel the Slim Shady vibe I felt with “ my name is “.

Its worth a listen !

Eminem just sat down with Sway for his first interview where he talks about his new album Kamikaze and rivals in the industry. Take a peek at part one of the interview here. Part two coming soon !

What makes you happy ?

What makes you happy ? That is a question I was asked a few days ago. I took a second to think about it . As a million thoughts blew through my mind , I became aware that at that moment ….. I wasn’t really happy. I am currently out of town for work. I’m not happy with my job. I am not happy at the hotel I am staying at. I am not happy in the city I am currently living for 3 months. I am not happy that I am not home . I am not happy that I have not seen my pets and family for awhile. So what do I do about it ?

I am the most content when I am home. Near familiarity. In my condo with everyone and everything that reminds me of where I came from. I have not even written a blog for a month. I have had zero inspiration.

I was watching a YouTube video on Jeffrey Star. If you had not heard about him you should check him out. He is a beauty guru who started from the bottom and has become a millionaire by hard work and his love of cosmetics. It got me really thinking of my career. What I’m doing with my life. Why am I still working in a career that I absolutely hate ? Answer ??? Bills !! Mortgage ! Food ! ……. but …. what about my happiness ?

What makes me happy ? What can I do for the rest of my life that will not make me dread waking up in the morning or dread going into work ? I feel like I have wasted YEARS wanting the days to hurry up so the weekend would arrive because I didn’t have to work. What really blows my mind is how long I have stayed in such an unhappy place. I remember when I was scheduled to have a major surgery I sat down with my physician to discuss all of the pros and cons of my surgery and my recovery time …..I only focused on my recovery time. As he sat in front of me and told me the minimum recovery time for this surgery was 6 weeks and maybe longer …..all I could think about was the 6 weeks I would be off work. Forget about the possibility of me heavily bleeding during the surgery , the possibility of having hysterectomy , the possibility of death ….well all that was just overshadowed by the instant joy I felt of having 6 weeks off of work !

Something is definitely wrong here. I should have been way more concerned with the surgery than having time off of work.

The problem is I didn’t know what to do with myself. There were bills and responsibilities I had as an adult. Sometimes I really hate being an adult.

One day I went to see an academic advisor. As we sat in this large room that echoed , the advisor asked me what could he help me with. I said I hate my career. I chose the wrong one. I need to start over but I don’t know what to do with myself. I could hear the ticking of the clock and wondered when he was going to respond. Then he finally spoke up and said ” if you could do anything you wanted , be anything you wanted , what is the first thing that pops in your head? It took me about a half of a second to blurt out ” I want to be the next Stephen King “. My advisor looked a little surprised . He smiled and said ” so you love to write ? “. I said yes. I have since I was a little girl. He said I was in the wrong school looking at the wrong programs. I looked down at all of the IT information that was in my hands. I was a little confused because I didn’t think a writer could make enough money to make ends meet unless you were actually Stephen King.

I took some time for myself to really think about what I actually like and how I can incorporate that into my life and make a career out of it. I have some ideas and I am slowly working on the process of getting into Social media marketing. Without getting into too much boring details about the process , I will just say I am working on it. I have a vision and I know it will just take some time to put it in place.

Until then …. I am hanging on by a thin rope.

Here is the video that has Inspired me. Maybe it will inspire you too !